Valentines Day

Josh and I don't make a huge deal out of Valentines Day. I honestly think its a little silly to spend a ridiculous amount of money to show someone you love them just one day out of the year. When you are truly in love Valentines should be celebrated everyday. A couple years ago Josh and I decided we would celebrate by writing each other love letters each year.

Yesterday we received some very unsettling news, my aunt suddenly passed away in her sleep. It was a complete shock and totally unexpected. It just goes to show we never know when I time on earth will be through. We should really live each day like its our last because it may be. So hold your sweetheart a little closer tonight, it just might be your last chance. I have a very difficult time with death. I understand that it is an essential part of the plan. But I just cant fathom how someone can be here one minute, and gone the next. I wonder if she knew what was going to happen. I wonder what she dreamed about that night. I wonder if she woke up at all before she returned to our Father in Heaven. So many unanswered questions. My heart and prayers go out to her family. Her husband, a now single father. Her children, the four people that she brought into this world. I can't imagine losing my mom. It seems so impossible. But nothing is impossible. I am just grateful that I have nothing but happy memories of my beautiful aunt. She was always so kind to me, always so fun to be around. She is and will forever be greatly missed.

Josh was so sweet to me after he heard the news, he made arrangements to take a personal day from work so that I wouldn't be home alone all night. For over an hour we snuggled on the love sac as I just sobbed trying to sort out the new reality. I'm sure this stuff happens everyday, but you never think it could happen to you. It didn't even happen to me, it happened to someone very close to me though. One of the reasons I take death so hard is because I am such an empathetic person. I feel the pain of those around me, and I put myself in their shoes. I never want my time with Josh to be through. Thanks to the gospel it never will be. It may be temporarily postponed, but we have Eternity together.