Leap of Faith

As some of you may know, I started a job recently selling air filtration and purification. I thought this would be a great opportunity to make some extra money and save up for what life will be like after October 7th. It has now been three weeks, tho it is not an ideal job I really wanted to stick it out. I do not particularly agree with the way they conduct their business, a lot of their practices are misleading. I tried to stay positive and tried to ignore what I didn't like about the job, my managers, and the owners. This week the job has taken a tremendous toll on my attitude, emotions, and body. It was difficult for me to come to the realization that the company I had agreed to work for did not intend to follow through with their promises regarding compensation. They made sure to tell me things a certain way to make them sound good, but also leaving themselves room to make excuses and create loop holes. Through thoughtful prayer and advice from some of the people I respect the most in life I decided to quit this job and focus on my own business, TradeMARK Massage.

This may seem irresponsible. Here I am, getting married in 9 weeks, 5 days, 18 hours, and 22 minutes (I have an app on my phone, I did NOT calculate those numbers myself) And I am leaving a full time job that has promised me X amount of dollars, for a job that is no guaranteed paycheck. On one hand I feel like a fool and a failure for not seeing this in the beginning, I just tried so hard to be positive:( The problem is, they can't give me the appointments they promised. I can't get paid unless I do appointments. But I am expected to be on call all the time in case they have an appointment for me, leaving me hardly any time to pay attention to TradeMARK or continue to build up my clientele.

On the other hand I know that I am a daughter of God, he has blessed me with so many things in life and I know he will make sure I get taken care of somehow. Whether it be with random side jobs for extra money, or an increase in my clientele at the Salon.

So this is my big leap of faith. Supporting myself by doing what I love the most, Massage. Though it may not seem like a big deal to you, it is a big deal to me. I am scared of not knowing what Heavenly Father has in store for me, my business, and my life for that matter. But I trust him with all my heart. He has blessed me with so much in life, including a wonderful man that I will be spending the rest of the eternities with. Josh has always been so supportive of me, my decisions, and my business. His support means so much to me I don't know how I could do this without him, I am just glad I don't have to:) Whatever path the Lord leads me to, I know that I can venture it. Whatever challenge he gives me, I know that I can conquer it. And whatever he continues to bless me with, I will be eternally grateful.